You cannot become 53 days sober overnight....and it takes 53 days lol da!...
And now you want to throw all that away...because your mind wants to f**k you up ? Distract yourself...good food always helps me. Walk away, enjoy a movie....
Imagine all the **** you have gone thru while you drank...I have lots of them to remind me how bad it is and will be ....and next day hangover and starting over...feeling like ****...
Man you are better off not going there ...anywhere close to that thought....take charge and be stubborn to be sober....