Originally Posted by
Springforward 
53 Days sober from a 5TH of Vodka daily.
I have been romancing the thought of get loaded ( drinking ).
I have not drank, my mind seems to be encouraging me that i will feel better with a drink then drinks.
I know that drinking is not the answer. I was so use to drinking everyday for years, now everything is different, not feeling well, not-sleeping good, unable to let go and relax.
Any thoughts or suggestions would be very helpful...
Stop romancing. You're romancing death. You're romancing getting sh;tfaced and hitting your head on the coffee table. You're romancing angry rambling rants to your loved ones in person and over text.
Its all a lie. Lies, lies, lies: there's nothing good about it. don't romance bullsh;t. Just figure out what your body and heart and brain need instead of getting loaded. chances are you need something but you haven't given enough thought to what that is.