Congratulations on your sobriety!!!! I needed the counseling - I agree with what others have said to try a psychotherapist/psychiatrist...someone with more experience. And try looking for one with addiction knowledge. I'm a clinician myself and even I needed the help! Early sobriety isn't easy and it helps so very much to have someone to talk with. Check in here often on SR....LOTS of super folks here!!!
Try to get that thought about "will I ever be able to drink again" out of your head. I'm a true blue alcoholic and for me whenever I put alcohol in to my body disaster...true disaster follows. Do a solid for your kids and be there for them in your true authentic self....not your wine soaked self.