Hi Rayna
Many times I felt not drinking was easy, or that I felt so good it meant I didn't have a problem anymore.
I'd think about drinking, just in a social setting, and having one or two.
Never worked out for long.
Don't confuse abstinence for control.
They are
not the same thing.
I am sure, if I was to drink tonight, I'd end up back at my worst in days.
I went out for a 'night off recovery' in 2004 and did not stop drinking again until 2007.
I believe no matter how long the abstinence period, my lack of control would still be there.
Sure some of us, like your grandmother, can quit one day and never look back - but please don't count on that.
I know many others - people from this website - who died putting off that final stopping date.
D