Panic setting in.
My drinking has always come with impulsive and excessive spending. I am behind on this month's rent because I drank half of it. I received a notice about being evicted and I am terrified. Last year I was evicted and lost a job so my family is financially supporting me given I am not able to work with my current state of mental health/addiction. I will have to call my father and explain that I screwed up again. I hate this. 41 years old and unable to support myself. I hate this disease.