Originally Posted by
honeypig 
Good morning, Jeni--I know what you mean about evenings and times when you have time on your hands. If I had a penny for every day that started out well but crashed and burned in the last few hours before bed...
My sincere sympathy on the loss of your dad. I've never been that close to mine, but as I've worked further into recovery, I begin to understand that he really was doing (and still is) the best he can, given who he is and how he is. And none of that is gonna change, so I need to get on w/accepting him as he is and appreciating the time we have left.
My Dad was an alcoholic, we had an uneasy and fractured relationship for most of his life. He was ill for a few years with cancer and as his health deteriorated, I found recovery from my own alcoholism, and we formed a close bond. He began to have real gratitude for his life and his family. I miss him now and wish we’d have had longer as adults without addiction hanging over us both.