Originally Posted by
ProfessorD 
Thanks venuscat. I'm going to make a cappuccino (no sugar) which will have to serve as breakfast. I don't feel like eating today. I'm exhausted, and I know as soon as I eat something all the cravings--for food, for sugar, for alcohol--will flood in. I simply don't feel up to the struggle today.
This is something I hope you'll take a closer look at when you're feeling more steady.
Food is healing. Food is good. Good, balanced nutrition supports emotional wellness. "Punishing" yourself because of your husband's actions sounds like codependency...that's what got me into recovery in 1989.
Have you read any of the sticky posts on the Friends & Family side? Treatment for codependency (in all my relationships) saved my life.
Please eat, it will help you feel better. Even if you eat 3000 calories today, you still will be under your needs. Don't let the eating disorder get a stronghold.
