Hi Fallow,
I'm glad you're back, and have four days sober under your belt. I joined SR in 2012, and took my last drink on December 31, 2015. I spent between 2012-2015 alternating between periods of sobriety, and failed attempts at moderation. There were also many times I found reasons to not quit "yet," there was a birthday, Anniversary, new job, sick family member, death... there was always going to be something.
Since getting sober I have had some big life stressors, but I got through them sober, and I am so glad that I did.
You can do this Fallow, keep adding to those days, and start planning support for your upcoming event, rather than relapse, sobriety is worth it!