FOOD!
Preburns- I was 126kg
post- 74
now 95
VERY labile weight. I thik too much about eating- and do eat a lot at night...perhaps boredom, stress- whatever. but think about the following folks.. I do overeat at times, but I
- do not blackout
- wake up feeling overwhelming shame that I have hurt others by being drunk
- hide empty alcohol containers
- say or do inappropriate things like make horrible telephone calls or emails
- have terrible mood swings- on top of a hangover.
My pattern of eating does need sorting- BUT it is far, far better than my drinking. I am a newborn with emotions. I have enough brains- and thus can logically reason what behaviour I need to change...BUT my emotions are still are, in reality immature.
We need time, patience and allowing myself to chill- the more I obsess about food- the more it gets eaten.
So perhaps what I need to do- is work on a PLAN of stuff for food...but not to blow it out of proprtion..and with support..
SO folks even writing this- I think I will get some help for this- GP first, then see.
My point is- alcoholism is a terrible, hellish and lonely disease. We do not recover overnight.
You are all good people, struggling with today- while wrestling with the past and hoping for the future.
Be gentle with yourselves.
Thus endeth the lesson.