i hope today brings a little clarity for ya,comtnman.
pen to paper would be a great thing for ya.
it seems that since youve moved from the mountains, this has been a recurring theme- anger and resentments towards everything big city.please get into a bit of 4th step work. probably wise to back up a few steps,though- start at step 1- powerless over people and making your life unmanagable.
wanna keep being nuts? go no further.
wanna get out of it? put God back in control
write it out.
remember- no one forced you to move there- its their city,too, and they were there before you.
ya may want to reread this
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...-serenity.html (My expectations are inversely proportional to my serenity)
And acceptance is the answer to all my problems
today. When I am disturbed, it is because I find some
person, place, thing, or situation—some fact of my life
—unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until
I accept that person, place, thing, or situation as being
exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment.
Nothing, absolutely nothing, happens in God’s world
by mistake. Until I could accept my alcoholism, I
could not stay sober; unless I accept life completely
on life’s terms, I cannot be happy. I need to concentrate
not so much on what needs to be changed in the
world as on what needs to be changed in me and in
my attitudes.
Shakespeare said, “All the world’s a stage, and all
the men and women merely players.” He forgot to
mention that I was the chief critic. I was always able
to see the flaw in every person, every situation. And I
was always glad to point it out, because I knew you
wanted perfection, just as I did. A.A. and acceptance
have taught me that there is a bit of good in the worst
of us and a bit of bad in the best of us; that we are all
children of God and we each have a right to be here.
When I complain about me or about you, I am complaining
about God’s handiwork. I am saying that I
know better than God