I agree with Forward12. Meds are not the cure-all. I take Celexa. It definitely takes the edge off, but with therapy and coping mechanisms, my anxiety is more manageable.
I also journal. I do it nightly. I am learning to be completely brutally honest in my journal. I trust that no one in my home will read it, and if they do, it's on them.
Just know you aren't alone! Hope you find what works for you soon. I know the pain.