I have done this before. For me, it was also a release and the only thing I thought I could control in my life. If you're cuts are deep, you WILL need medical attention. So many things can go wrong from infection to blood loss to others. There is a lot of amazing support here. It sounds like there is more to what you are dealing with than the alcohol addiction. I truly hope you feel the support helps. I know its hardy Snufkin. Chin up, you CAN overcome this.