I tried some AA meetings early last year but quickly felt out of place.
Not pushing AA, just a train of thought as I can relate. I also quickly felt out of place...
because I was! So I continued to return to my comfort place and what I knew, which was drinking.
That I knew! I needed to change and push myself to do things differently, otherwise, nothing was going to change and I was going to wind up back in my comfort place (AKA alcoholic hell). I needed to be uncomfortable in order to finally truly be able to experience what it was like to be comfortable in my own skin.