This is me as well. I never hit rock bottom, or at least not in the classical sense. I didn't go to jail, didn't burn my house down, or wreck my car. I did have a very, very bad day and that was my last straw. I was also a very functional drinker - drank 32 ounces of pure vodka each and every day and, usually, showed no outward signs of intoxication, I consider that 'functional'. In the end, I was drinking so much, so often that my liver was starting to get behind processing it all. I was getting really drunk really quickly. I also started losing parts of my day and lost most of that very bad day. Just got tired of living that way really. I did not like what I was becoming.