Hi Irish, I had over 5 months sober last year. One of the factors was keeping a clear head for a new job/ career change. The longer I was off the drink the more everything just seemed to fall into place.
Fast forward to me thinking I could control it. After my last binge 28th April I realised that enough is enough. It ruined me for a week right in the middle of a training course.
The anxiety I had plus trying to hide the hand tremors, and slow reactions made me realise how much more productive I had been during the 5 months last year.
32 days in now and feeling good, still get cravings but I know the end goal will be worth it.
Likewise for you, if you stay off it I bet you will see an improvement in your work and what you can cope with.
Good luck