Alcoholism has taken away any self confidence I once had. Which was never much in the first place. I cant think of anything I like about myself anymore. It has damaged friendships because of the terrible ways I’ve acted in front of/toward people. Sometimes I’m just too embarrassed to ever contact someone again. It has damaged my brain. I feel like I am missing a connection to my past. Like I don’t remember how things made me feel. Everything, even things before my drinking began, feels like a blur. And now, trying to recollect on my past feels impossible. Not to mention the amount of blackouts I’m dealing with now. My entire life feels like it didn’t happen. And that’s sad and scary.