Originally Posted by julietUK

Hi everyone. Haven't posted in a while (apart from check in) but always read them all. Well done snufkin, so glad you and bf sorted Jo. Neo, you and your girl are a treat for the eyes. What a lovely pic, I wish you all the happiness.

Glad you are still with us Gabe, I know what you mean about impossible targets and the devil word 'should'. Looking back I think that has caused me to relapse on many occasion. I used to think 'if I didn't drink I would do blah blah blah, then I stopped drinking and didn't do half of it, so may as well drink ......

This time I tried to set myself realistic targets, small daily jobs, which most of the time I do. But I still suffer from the self loathing and self criticising. I know romance is in the air on this thread today but sadly I left my husband at Christmas. I had to for my sobriety and my sanity. But the relationship has left me in a bad way self esteem wise. I can't believe what I tolerated from him. I am trying to move on but it is hard. So many regrets. And sitting here beating myself up for just about everything does not help. I too need to lose weight, have gained a lot since I stopped drinking, and left the marriage, lots of comfort eating going on.

Sorry for the moan, just having a bad day. I am so glad to be sober and clean but I do have trouble forgetting the past. I think I will be single for the rest of my days, can't trust anyone, least of all myself.
Thanks for listening.
Kenton, so happy to finally see your dog, I feel I know him, bless. I left mine with my husband and I miss her terribly.