Hi slipnslide.
I may be wrong but it sounds to me that you seem to be thinking very like I used to rationalise with myself. Before I gave up drinking for good I would pat myself on the back if I managed a week or so without alcohol because that proved I could do it. Uhuh - I could do a week or two but I hadn't really let it sink in that I was going to have to give it up for good. Subconsciously I was giving myself permission to go back to it anytime life chucked a curveball at me and I'm afraid it doesn't work like that. If you really want to give up then I'm afraid it's going to take more than a fortnight.
It's rough I know, but people like us who have to be hyper aware of their alcohol intake really shouldn't be intaking alcohol.
Wishing you well - you CAN do it, and please say "hi" to let us know how you're getting on. Yix x