Your silence and lack of updating us on how it went spoke a thousand words. I knew exactly why you had gone on radio silence, was hoping you would be honest at some point and glad to see you have
No good can come from hiding drinking if you want to beat this, it just makes you feel worse and unable to reach out as you feel like you've let people down and then a drink just seems like a good idea and so on. If you want to have a sober life you can, we all can! You just need to commit 100, put in the hard yards and be honest with yourself xx