Ready to throw in the towel and drink
So tired all the time. Alcohol gives me energy. Just want to go back to bed because my sponsor is coming over tonight and I need to clean up. I feel like AA is wearing me out. Just want to get another loan buy smokes have a few drinks and forget everything for a while. My ex doesn't even want me to ring at all now which has really upset me. I don't understand why and there is no closure. My sponsor is lending me money to buy a vaporiser and I am paying her back. Maybe I will feel worse if I throw in the towel.