Thank you for sharing this. It’s a reminder we all need, no matter how long one has been sober. I’ve done it so many times... felt great, stable, hopeful... then watched it all disappear into a bottle . I know the vicious cycle so well; my AV convinces me that I can do it in moderation, even though time and time again it turns into 3 days later and I can’t remember what I did or how I even got the booze. The cycle can end today though.
Even if you’ve had a bit to drink, see if you can get to a meeting. If you need detox help, for sure do that first. No one will judge you! Sounds like you need some more changes; make them happen �� it all starts with you!