(((ebjco)))
Welcome to SR.
I can certainly relate to you and how "other people" make us feel about ourselves.
It is a defeating feeling, but wait...there is a definite road to feeling better,
in the way we perceive ourselves and how we handle and process our relationships
with others.
Do you have someone to talk with about your feelings? A therapist or counselor?
It would help you so much if you would let out some of these concerns that are over whelming you.
Please feel free to come here often and let it out. You are not stupid. Your post proves that you have intelligence and sensitivity...
We're here to listen and help with our experience and strength..
You can get through this, and things will be better...