It is an interesting article. Thank you
As I was reading it, I was thinking about something I discovered about myself in thinking about a situation that happened years ago. I'm not sure if it's relevant but it seems to be. A long time ago several years after we first married, I did something very unlike me. Over the years I thought about it and decided that I created the chaos that I had been used to in my life. I'm happy to say I no longer want chaos and I don't want t to make it or feel likes its normal anymore. I've been working through a lot of emotions lately. And this is getting off topic of the thread, so apologies. I'm just venting. I feel like I have to always be "on" and always be strong and it's so tiring. I think I do it because I'm afraid in that weak moment I will fall apart. Maybe it isn't off topic. Maybe being strong all the time is chaos. Maybe I need to break down. At this moment I have nobody to just sit and talk to in person that could be with me while I allow myself to be weak