He's drunk when he rages, but even when sober, he feels really, really pissed off because I am not sleeping with him.
I don't know how to articulate this - but - is it my fault for not sleeping with him? If I were a "proper wife", would he be happier and more open to stop drinking? The thought of sleeping with him is not appealing at all, because he's mean to me.
I get how this looks on paper. God. I swear I'm smart in other areas of my life.