i think you know what happened.....you got frustrated and decided to drink at it. then the wheels came off.
it's scary just how quickly those wheels can start flying off, isn't it? one drink and now you have some job jeopardy, a very worried g/f, and huge ton of regret.
so what do we do? get some rest, get some food, and really dive into developing a solid RECOVERY PLAN. commit to not drinking today, no matter what. and keep doing that. you CAN do this.