Thanks GF!
Sounds like you have suffered many losses as well; for that I'm so sorry. ((((GF))))
You know I don't feel like anyone's daughter or mother. I feel like what is my purpose here on this planet?
It seems like everytime I try and rebuild, a major crises destroys everything. The loss of my son is the worst of them all. Losing my mother to cancer doesn't compare at all to losing him. Although it may only be temporary, these last few years without knowing if he is alright has been pure hell..
What did him and I do to deserve this? All that I can do is survive and learn from my past mistakes, so I can be there for him if he ever needs me when he is old enough to leave his abusive, cultish father's house. I think knowing he is out there somewhere and may need me someday, is the only thing keeping me going.