Thanks Gianna and Patty!!
I'm not sure what is going on with me, the whole thing with rescuing and my son?
Most of the time I spent with exabf was when he was sober. The time before he got sober, I didn't know he was an alcoholic, and when he started drinking again, I really detached from him and we slept in seperate rooms for three months. Then he went out on the road, and we sort of got back together, it's just I didn't have to see him, and didn't really know he was drinking, as he could lie very easily over the phone and I never really knew.
So I guess I'm lucky that the majority of the time was spent with him being sober. That's what I remember the most. Oh well, either way he's destroying himself, and when I think about it, its just so strange he is now a full blown A. I can't believe thats what broke us apart, never thought he would go back to that lifestyle, as he truly cherished his sobriety.
Oh well I'm just rambling on here. I'll shut up now..