Some great advice in here! You must walk away from this guy and all of his crap. Any breakup sucks whether it's with an addict/cheater/crazy/it's not you it's me/ect.. They just suck and it takes time, self reflection and working on yourself to get past it. I still care for my exAgf and hope she's happy in her life,but even that slight feeling is starting to fade and I'm ok with that. My exAw of 7'ish years never even crosses my mind anymore and she's the mother of my 22yr old daughter. This guy is TROUBLE! Hell he's been locked up like half of your relationship. I don't say this to sound mean,but you are nothing more than commissary money while he's inside, a roof over his head and address for his PO,car service and ATM on the outside. He is using you.