Justin,
Ime...it takes years to normalize. I am still a bit messed up.
I call it PAWS. It might be getting used to normal.
I have never been rx any anxiety pills, but I hear it is a new level of hell on earth to break free of the mixed addiction.
Suffering is my go to word. Obessing equals suffering.
I treat myself like I am a relapse away from the looney bin.
Addict for life. Treating myself like this helps keep me from forgetting the hells I have endured getting this clean.
We are lucky to have the knowledge, sr, to help us break free.
Some folks never catch on and then they just go crazy or die.
Thanks.