Keep talking. Find whatever help you can face to face and stick close here.
When we drown ourselves in fear, shame and isolation it's a fast road back to a drink.
Don't compare anyone else's situation to yours. There is no way to know what will happen. The best thing for you and baby, is to stop drinking and take, very, very good care of yourself.
And when I put the emphasis on very- I mean emotionally, mentally, spiritually as much as physically.