I'm glad you're here, E1234! Not drinking during pregnancy was hard (I kept it down to a glass of wine or two here or there) and freaking out about FAS was the worst (I got wasted before finding out I was pregnant). He was perfect and healthy and he's smart and darling.
BUT. This is really important. PLEASE get yourself locked into a recovery program now. Postpartum hormones are a cyclone of chaos and postpartum depression is incredibly common. I thought I was free of the addiction because I was able to moderate in pregnancy, but then it joined forces with the PPD and the sleep deprivation and the crazy pressure of keeping the little critter alive and healthy. and now I'm struggling to quit because I know that I'll never have control of it.
It's going to be harder after the baby is born. Please get help now! I wish I had!!!