Originally Posted by
MindfulMan 
It wasn’t completely like a light switch, more like a dimmer. Drinking and using was dark. Gradually turning up the light over a period of a few weeks revealed a far more vibrant and beautiful world.
Yes this is much of what I feel now, almost a month since my last and final taste of alcohol. My AV's lies present white wine a sunny early evening as this sweet escape into pleasure - where the truth is a dark, passed out, nauseous life of real escape from real pleasure and light and love and all the things that we get when we are sober.