Buck,
imo...my brain doesn't find as much natural happiness anymore...like a brain never impacted by years of alcohol consumption.
It is getting better though. Since I understand what I did to myself and generally what is going on inside my head, I can deal with it.
Before SR, it was a mystery.
When I read posts that say...I don't know why I can't stop drinking...or...why do I feel this way...I try an offer the scientific approach. That is what got me this far.
I fully fear that I could relapse...I am an addict for the rest of my life. I have come so far in the last few years.
There is nothing good that comes from ingesting mind altering substances like booze. It is a learned behavior that has been handed down from generations of unknowing folks that were addicted from a young age.
We here are lucky to have the awareness and the desire. We can try to break the cycle for those that will listen and trust.
Thanks.