Glad you are doing so well Less. I can say that I did have a somewhat of an enlightened/transitional moment where I knew that drinking was not an option anymore. I don't know that I suddenly felt that I would never drink again, but I finally accepted that I would never be able to do it at all without serious consequences
I can say that I really don't involuntarily think about whether I will drink or not anymore. Sure, when I'm here on SR I do remind myself of why I'm here and I still find value in interacting with newcomers and learning about addiction in general. But for the rest of the day, I honestly don't even think about alcohol or drinking - or NOT drinking at all. It simply doesn't even register with my conscious mind.