a good rule of thumb is to put as least as much energy into staying sober as we did getting drunk. so if we drank every day, or most days, then we should be willing to take sober actions equally as often. for many that includes attending AA meetings. the unspoken and uwritten suggestion of 90 in 90 is done for that very reason......to REPLACE the regular ongoing drinking related activities with sober/recovery related activities.
sweeti, you put yourself thru hell to keep drinking. give yourself THE CHANCE to really GET the sober thing this time. do whatever it takes. not what is easy, but what is necessary.
I need all the help I can get. Sometimes I think the forums work better than AA
ALL the help you can get.