Hello everyone.
I am finishing up day 2.
You know my father today told me "He who searches will always find"
And I've been searching on how to do something different this time.
in my two days, I have
-gone to AA, planning atm to do every Mon and Thur as per their schedule.
- i have definitely accepted step 1 out of the 12
- I have written hello letters to all my old friends that i haven't spoken to in years. With one i discussed alcohol and found that he too also has a problem ( he even has a micro-distillery to save cash) .
- i did tell him i went to AA, he said "jeez are you alright man" i explained to him it's like a gym, but for your brain.
- i was extremely bogged down today with sadness, i forced myself to go for a long strenuous bike ride - my tire went flat but I did enjoy the walk back home - the ride did improve my mood
- I have taken steps to partly let go of my relationship.
- i have made this journal ( to also keep the board clean)
- atm, i need to be around people, in part that's why i have been very active here today. even txt gives off a company vibe.
- iam still spontaneously breaking into tears for about...10 seconds every hour or two for some reason though. i don't know what this is, this has never happened before.
in conclusion, upon doing these things it has helped unfog that "drive" to not pick up a drink. Ive been here before, i know this drive and it has helped me in the past.
onto 3 tomorrow