Originally Posted by Gabe
Your urge for what Jess?
The urge to call him.
It floors me that he don't call to see how I am or how the kids are. I think I'm feeling a little sad that he hasn't called. But then again, that is how he is and I shouldn't expect anything more. He may not be calling me b/c he's waiting for me to call him. But I don't want to call him b/c I know that when I do call him I only get frustrated...b/c I don't get the reaction I was hoping for, or b/c he's drinking, or "venting" to me about how he has no money, no electric, blah blah blah (should I feel bad for him-cause I don't?). The conversations are usually one sided...me doing most of the talking. I'm tired of trying to hold on to something that was never there in the first place. Which is what I think I was doing when I (use to) obsess about all this stuff.
shew....I'm okay, really
Thank you Gabe.
I'm going to get my kids in bed and call it a night.