I could tell last week that my AV and I would go back and forth and back and forth...like I was trying to silence it, that was definitely white knuckling and when I decided I was just going to drink.
With the way I see the AV now, I had the thought, "I should pick up some beer while at the grocery store." I ruminated on it a bit and came about the picture of what I'd turn into if I said yes, attached that image to the AV, and thought "SHE's the one trying to get me to drink" and bam, it was gone. That was the first time where I just recognized it and it stopped...there was no back and forth.
What made the difference, I don't know. The way I envisioned the AV last week seemed too vague and imaginary. This way, it's more real and specific to me. I can't even refute that drinking won't lead me become that vision, because that's just the exaggerated version of who I see myself as recently when drunk...just without the Walmart light pink polyester granny panty underwear. lol