Thanks AussieButterfly, I decided last night that I don't need the AA meetings and have officially made my Big Plan.
Sunday night, was the sealer for me...
we had everyone over for mothers day..everyone bought there own alcohol, as always, and I was happily serving it out to the guests without a thought of drinking. And any "little nagging thoughts" were instantly dismissed and all that from the crash course on the web. The book becomes the final nails in the coffin for the beast.
So yes, I want to do it and will.
And thanks also GerandTwine, yep, it sounds like the book is the reason for the reaction from the beast
Jberk