It's all over now...
Filed the final divorce paperwork. May 22nd will be one year since my amazing husband, the man that I thanked God for every day, relapsed on crack cocaine and our beautiful life exploded. In 45 days he lost/walked away from our home, our family, me his wife, his job all of his possessions and spent 15,000. In 45 days. He just will not stop using and now has a new girlfriend who also uses, so he does not want me or life back. During this year my entire world and heart and spirit and belief system has been violently shaken and brutally broken. But because of the support of groups like this and others who have had to experience the hell of addiction, I have survived. I think. Lol. Also, knowing he didn't really want to do this to me or himself, has taken away so much of the weight of pain. My husband suffers from a lifelong illness and I pray everyday for him to stop using and get better. Thank you for listening and for sharing your stories and wisdom and your support.
Amy