. I think it's unfair that I have to remain disciplined with recovery just to stay alive.
this gives the assumption that people that have no problem with alcohol dont have to remain disciplined to keep their lives moving in the right direction.
alcoholic or not, discipline in a necessity.
Anyway, my sponsor thinks I need to find some acceptance around being an alcoholic.
i think the first thing to have that would be to understand what it means to be an alcoholic.
the first step:
we admitted we were powerless over alcohol....
even with that, it was good for me to understand what that meant.
i couldnt do step 1 without understanding it.
i couldnt do step 2 without understanding it.
i couldnt do step 3.................
and not my understanding either. my understanding got me drunk.