Hi alis
so sorry you are going through this rough time
but glad you are here-this is the place to share
feelings, and your feelings are normal and legitimate.
why not try doing something for yourself? get your mind
off of the problem (him) even if you dont feel like it--the
very best time to do something for you! a walk, a movie,
dinner out, call an old friend. Focus on what you need right
now and go for it.
Probably not calling is a good idea try and stick with that.
Have you tried alanon yet? I have found its great for getting
my mind off of my problems and obsessive thoughts.
God bless you today
hugs
liddy