Hi supersonic - I'm so glad you joined us.
I tried very hard to be a social drinker, for many years. I don't remember a time when I was able to keep it to 'one or two'. Once the first drink is in our system, all bets are off. I never knew where that first drink would take me. In the end, it always led me into danger- & an unpredictable outcome. The only way to stay safe was to stop all together. I'm glad you're paying attention to the warning signs you're experiencing. I hope you'll continue to talk things over here.
