Welcome to SR Supersonic. I couldn't moderate my drinking. After a period of abstinence, I would try to moderate and initially I was successful. Before too long, I was right back to or more than the amount I was previously drinking. Hiding your drinks is not a good sign. I started to drink early afternoon, but whenever anyone would come over at that time, I would rush to hide my drink and replace it with water, as if I had been drinking that all along.
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