Hi and welcome supersonicpig
I can only tell you that no amount of time off reset me as a normal drinker.
I look back now and see I was
never a normal drinker - I drank hard and often and I drank to escape/get wasted.
There was nothing to reset to, and I think maybe, looking at your post and your journey, you might be in the same boat?
I confused abstinence for control a fair few times.
My life got better because I stopped drinking, not because I suddenly or magically gained control over my insatiable desire to drink the world dry
I'm really glad you found us
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