today i dont know if i can make it anymore. today it feels like my insides are being taken apart, my heart re broken. i have written P... is that what i am to do? write to feel this way? tell me what is this for? why is it that i am so close to wanting to never breathe again????? how can it have such impact on me and my life? i am so angry at everyone...EVERYONE.! i dont want my children to walk thru the door..
i dont want anyone to do anything but go away!!!
i feel as tho i am suffocating. it is so hard to breathe... i just want it to stop.
tired of complaining. tired of this 10 days of hell...or a lifetime rather....