Originally Posted by
Jen197800 
. Asked God to remove my character defects!
thats a good thing,jen, but i think youre putting the cart before the horse. theres 6 steps before that that should be worked in order.
has your sponsor guided you through the steps before?
maybe it would be wise to go through them again?
you mentioned the obsession earlier? it seems this was well known to occur by the writers of the BB some time ago:
Once more: The alcoholic at certain times has no effective mental defense against the first drink. Except in a few rare cases, neither he nor any other human being can provide such a defense. His defense must come from a Higher Power.
on this:
Do y’all have anxiety and the fear of unknown things.
today?no.
early on?yes. the steps(and courage) helped with both.