TLC

Thank you !!!!
I know I need to go through, albeit painful recovery. I find it reassuring to hear this is normal for the circumstances. With his drama, trauma and craziness, it made me feel I was crazy. In fact there were many times he'd turn things around, twisting words and circumstances that would make me feel crazy and he'd then tell me I was. . I think someone in the beginning of all this may have said that if I didn't get out, he would take me with him. I believe that.

His father (recovering A / psychologist) once told me I have complicated grief. Grief /anger/ manipulated/ betrayal, with all the fixings that addiction delivers etc. It is crazy making and I was worried that it was just too much to sort out and I was getting stuck in trying to heal.

My heart breaks some days, I look forward to realizing I have gone a day without a thought of him.