I am so sorry Horn. i lost my youngest sister almost 2 years ago. I had quite a bit of sobriety under my belt, and lasted through the funeral. A couple days after that I went back into the bottle hard. I regret that so much because I was unable to be there for my other family members while we all grieved because I was so messed up. Try to stay strong and remain sober. Stick near this site. Again, I am so sorry for your loss.