Thank you all!! I'll keep my eye on the price from now on.
Buckely3 - by "high functioning alcoholic" and "not hitting rock bottom" I meant I have always been in employment, worked very hard, have had numerous appreciations etc. and I have never had a "typical" low point such as a DUI or an accident. I have had several very, very low points though, so I am in no way in denial. I am an alcoholic. I'll never be a normal drinker, but I can be a normal, sober person. And I will be, too, unless I have done too much damage to my body already.
It's evening where I am, and I've had a difficult, emotional day (grieving for my mother who I lost not long ago). I've decided to stay with another family member for a while instead of toughing the first days out all on my lonesome - sitting alone, resisting the urge to do to the store for a bottle. (This family member knows about my struggle and I have their support.)